Monday, September 24, 2007

Back Glog

Some serious catching up to do.

I'm going to pretend it's two weeks ago and today for the next 2 weeks.  Our financial planner, Mitch Kramer of Fluent Financial, a great guy and one hell of a model American, said it would be a good idea to capture all the emotions felt at the time of John's birth and then read them again on his birthday...

So.... 2 weeks ago I am grateful for:
  • My mom spending the night with us before John's delivery.  She slept late - a true once in a lifetime deal.  Usually she'd be the one up first making coffee.  Instead, I went up stairs at 4:46 am to find her midway through an unseasonably large redwood - sawing away. 
"Mom?" I queried. 
"What," replied a groggy voice. 
"Today's John's birthday.  You're going to be late!" I chimed. 
"What time is it?"  Now she sounded worried.
"4:46"
"Aw shit."
  • Amazed at how Kristina had dealt with her fears days before the surgery and seemed calm and sure about meeting our little man.  Note - she was also weak from not eating anything. 
  • I was so glad we'd picked the 5:30.  We seemed to be the only patients there and a full staff was on hand. 
  • Neil, the CRNA prepped Kristina.  Weird that some think it's weird for a man to be a nurse, but Neil's steady hands, calming voice, and "I've done this a million times already this morning" tone made Kristina that much more comfortable.
  • My scrub top was great.  The scrub one-size-fits-all trash bag pants sucked.  That's ok.  They really wouldn't show in the picture, and John wouldn't care.
  • The OR was sterile and I was extremely happy the lights weren't reflective or mirrored in a fashion that would allow Kristina to watch the handwork.
  • Private, alone moments in 7-Eleven grade brightness and a crowd.  Looking into Kristina's eyes and showing her that I am here - always have been, always will be.
  • Laughing about how cold the ER was.
  • Kristina asking for a pain check and the Anesthesiologist replying - "Trust me - you're not feeling a thing."
  • Tommy - the baby nurse was awesome.  He, Neil, and Dr. so and so (he'll send the Anesthetist bill) kept me on point with what to film and what makes a good memory. 
  • Timing - At the right moment, Dr. Spooner and Dr. Watts positioned John and told him to come on... it's his birthday.  "Stand up Dad," Dr. Spooner proclaimed and keep filming.
  • John's first cry.
  • Modern health care.
  • Taking the proud daddy walk to the nursery following my son.
  • Holding John's hand as he endured all the nursery and state "procedures"
  • Having my two moms and Susan there to watch the whole thing.
  • Tiny foot prints and tiny hand prints that take up the whole hand print and foot print card because they aren't so tiny!
  • 10 pounds.  6 ounces.  21.25 inches
  • Coming back from the nursery to see Kristina, passing the OR and being pointed to recovery with these words: "Your wife is all finished, alert, and in recovery."  In the baby excitement and daddy duties, I almost was able to put my worry in the back of my mind regarding Kristina's safety, but there's really nothing like having mom and baby safe and sound.
  • Oddly grateful for long stays in the hospital for C-Section patients.  Way to go BC.
  • Unbelievably humbled by the life affirming miracle of childbirth.
Today I am grateful for:
  • An amazingly beautiful wife.
  • The smartest, strongest, best baby - EVER.
  • Clean bill of health for Kristina.
  • Healthy 1st checkup for John.  His VSD is gone but we'll celebrate when the cardiologist concurs.
  • 11 pounds, 4 ounces.  23 inches.
  • Finally learning to burp him... call me, I'll teach you the no pat burp technique!
  • Accordian toots
  • Siebel releases that finally work - talk about getting rid of a monkey.
  • Family Time.
  • Picasa to store my photos.
  • Shiner 98.
H.H.